TO KNOW ME IS TO GROW ME...

I didn't  make a New Years Resolution yet 2009 has already proven to be a year of tremendous growth for me.  It's funny the way God works, but GOD WORKS

The simple things screw me up. Peep the randy dandy list below on the places I've been but will no longer go...

1. CURSING: I didn't curse until two years ago, and I still sound stupid doing it. The way I sound has never embarrassed me like my feeble attempt at BOGGLE last night! I mean where did my vocab escape to? Never again will I issue profanities. I've also began to study my thesaurus (laughing but serious)

2. DRINKING: Also started two years ago. I really get nothing out of it. I started because I became a babysitter and figured that I deserved no worries too. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...no more drinking for me. I believe I get into more trouble sober anyway lol.

3. MINDLESS DATING: This one is dangerous. Not from a random sexual aspect, because that's just disgusting, but seriously you can really warp your view of men if you deal with just ANYBODY. I am an idealist, I pride in the men I've chosen for relationships. They, alongside the men in my family, have established my positive perception of men. In most cases a man will give you what you demand. That said, I will only date someone I can see in a relationship. Period. No more just hanging out for laughs. The things that will come to you that way are rarely funny.  

MR MC DREAMY

Its been such a long time since I have blogged (thank myspace) but today I feel inclined to give thoughts to you people also known as the general public! Today we will be speaking on love for me. What would my Mr. McDreamy would be.

If you know know me, then you realize that I am not your average. In any since of the word. I'm slightly detached (there is a thin layer of awareness that seperates me from everything) -I might not always be with you or a boo- still true I never walk alone. Not caring what everyone is doing saying or wearing, never swearing however always knowing whats going on. One of the most compassionate people you will meet. Meek. Clever. Passionate. Humble, but too confident in my capabilities. A lover of many things. and with that brings...

a need for a Mr. McDreamy = someone to compliment not make me

Someone who is something so steamy, but still packaged. Self aware.
Self contained. Self motivated. Self Controlled. My Mr. Complimentry me has to be strong, but true and humble enough to admit that even he could do wrong-someone comfortable and proud of where he came from. He has to have a great smile, an open mind...and be honest because i can't stand a liar, or a try too harder...he has to be someone who wants for the world the chances he has had himself (an innovator/door opener) . He wants to do for others, because he realizes he has gotten nowhere by himself. I want someone whom is comfortable enough to just be. And those are my qualities. My Mr. McDreamy is just someone whom enbodies qualities that allow him to be open to love. Just because that's all I know how to do, and its what he deserves.

enough rambles for today

Been Around the World and I I I

i think folks are crazy....

and i dont know man i dont know why

why they think they phase me

all i know is what can see

crazy

please dont have no babies

PHENOMENAL WOMAN

PHENOMENAL WOMAN
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size But when I start to tell them, They think I'm telling lies. I say, It's in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me.

I walk into a room Just as cool as you please, And to a man, The fellows stand or Fall down on their knees. Then they swarm around me, A hive of honey bees. I say, It's the fire in my eyes, And the flash of my teeth, The swing in my waist, And the joy in my feet. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me.

Men themselves have wondered What they see in me. They try so much But they can't touch My inner mystery. When I try to show them They say they still can't see. I say, It's the arch of my back, The sun of my smile, The ride of my breasts, The grace of my style. I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me.

Now you understand Just why my head's not bowed. I don't shout or jump about Or have to talk real loud. When you see me passing It ought to make you proud. I say, It's in the click of my heels, The bend of my hair, the palm of my hand, The need of my care. 'Cause I'm a woman Phenomenally. Phenomenal woman, That's me.

So what i didn't write that (its by Maya Angelou) but if the poem fits...

ending notes

What can I say world
What can I say
Yours Truely has a birthday tomm.
I haven't really sent out a list of things
But hit me up email if you are trying to make a donation

I went out for sushi last night and i fell in love with this place-shout out to Tiph

What can I say world
What can I say
Yours Truely has a birthday tomm.
I haven't really sent out a list of things
But hit me up email if you are trying to make a donation

I went out for sushi last night and i fell in love with this place-let me tell ya

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IN THE WORDS OF HYPE MAN FLAVA FLAV-----YALL KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS




and it is hard on these streetz son! I love the month of April (not just because my birthday is on the 21st) but also because of the blue skies and temp. highs.

it puts me in a good mood

i am due for a celebration b#&$^S!
somebody better throw a party.
or at the very least coordinate a trip

i have been cabled in the stable for far to long----

March 13th

HELLO WORLD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY
oh yea i almost forgot to forget you forgotten fradulent forgetables

your girl is back. and alot has been going on. ooh ohh and i like it. these days i am begininging to miss my friends (old and new) these days i am falling all over again (for you know who) these days i am focused and proud to just be me. Making the best of what i was given. Seizing every opportunity. Breathing. Accepting. Giving. Living. ooh ohh and i like it!

24 hours

Oh what a difference 24 hours make!

Yesterday- I awakened to a phonecall proclaiming "Hey Astrin its a steal"

and today

I realize that all that comes from the sky, doesn't fall particularly for me...
someone, somewhere, may need it more urgently
and in a sick way its comforting
To know I get what i deserve, and am destined, and have prayed for
not an ounce more

especially not in the form of an impromptu imported car
...and thanks man that impregnated my momma,

it says a lot that you didn't question me, didn't discourage me, and only said "OK Baby, I'll do it if its what you want",
"is it what you want?"
"ok then" (and yes I could hear your grin)
"when"


"just give me 24 hours"...